LIFE
starting something in my life i guess... instead of using the same old wall and pillow again and again to release myself, trying to blog. Not as satisfying but less violent i guess.. hehe.
As a kid, you can say my life was perfect growing up,without any problems.... Ever since my Gramps went back to be with the lord, everything started going downhill.. Entering teenage life was crappy and tough. Not like they pictured it in movies on how awesome it was to be in high school.. There was so much competition, kiasu-ness, drama,backstabbing, challenges and lastly the thing that brought to my downfall all this while, dating.
Dating has always been a subject on every teenager lips, and growing up with minimum exposure in this, things were exciting! dated for all my high school life, and suffered the consequences for it.. Getting dumped, used, broken hearted, and finally alone. My friends were always there during that period of time, until when it came to the year 2010.
I became a stubborn fool, and idiot some would say, psychotic... I couldn't differentiate what was right and wrong.. i become so obsessed with this one girl i was dating that my friends gave up hope on me... i suffered pretty badly, in all terms.... Especially at home and in my heart.. i neglected my life and solely focused on this point where i thought that nothing could go wrong.... How wrong was i.... A fool.
Until all was stripped away from me, even my best friends, Even my macha and shawty gave up cause i was that pathetic and i would never listen to them cause of my stubborness... Especially that one when i started to neglect her... After being hurt and killed inside i don't think i would ever come out of this dark hole i plummeted myself in...
Until my friend, she came from that darkness and stretched out her hand, the only one that i told about my life, every step, every move, every decision, every thing that happened in my life... She helped me get back up on my feet, forget about the past and move on... without her, i would've never come out to become who i am now...
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I can't do much cause well, this friend lives so far away.. All i can say is...
Thank you.
Thank you for all those years where you were always there.. listening to my rants, to my crap, making me want always smile in front of you.. always acting like a clown, always laughing to put a wide smile on your face that makes your face shine... :) I hope for many years to come, you will continue being my friend, my legendary friend, my bunny... Because if its not for you, i wouldn't be the jarrett i am today...
Merci beaucoup mon ami....
This first post goes to you... ;)
WOW, now i knw what shawty means!!!! its do good to let go of everything!!!!!:DD thanks for inspiring me to start blogging shawty!!!! always being a sexy biatch in my life.. XD ahahahaha..
Peace out!!
Sometimes when you fall into the deep abyss, sometimes when you fall and you think you can never get up again, sometimes you feel that you want to lie there and just die, well sometimes a hand comes out of the light to pull you back from the darkness.. Those are the times you will always be thankful for.. - annonymous
