This song is so heart wrenching and just brings tears to me. The imagery of having you close to me, to feel you next to me.. It hurts just to think about it. Unable to spend time with you, and do the simple things like walk with you to school,sleep next to you, to hold you, to play in the snow, to hug you and hold you on the first sight of snow and first scent of spring. I have no ill heartedness when your doing it with something else.. I just wished i could do it with you too.....
Weird name for a blog post. I know.. But it really was... Firstly, after eating lunch at my family cafe. We went upstairs to our house to... well.. go home. :DD So anywho, when we reached the house i realised we had no key in... And well, me and my younger siblings excluding the youngest were like GOSH....WHY DID WE LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT A HOUSE KEY?? Doesn't really help when your mum and dad is out.... So i did what i usually did when i forgotten my keys. I climbed through the grille.. (No, i aint telling you where i live.. ><'''' Thank god for my spare key to the laundry room grille. Surre, you might think its dangerous bt not really. I live in a condominium which means if i fall, its a 2 storey plunge to the ground.. Well, that never happened before.. hehehe... Still alive and well! So i climbed through and well the opening is pretty big so yeah.. im good. thank goodness its a door. But then... I went into the kitchen, and well..The kitchen door was locked too.. GREAT... so there was no way to actually go in... And as all hope was lost, my brother had the idea of saying 'HEY, GOR WHY DON'T YOU CLIMB THROUGH THE TOILET WINDOW?? Yeah, the toilet window faces the laundry room.. First i thought it was stupid,but then the burning desire to actually go home and rest was like GAHH!!!!!! So without 2nd thoughts, i climbed up and opened the window. First i thought it would be easy. trust me, it aint easy...... ><''' had to actually lift myself up first using a door ledge and a grille bar.... balancing was tough cuz the door constantly moves... Then putting my body into a straight lieing position to actually slip my body in the window.. Once my legs, well below the knee was in it was easy to slip in.But then, there's nothing to stand on in the toilet. Which means i fall and injure myself and maybe even permanent damage. SCARY... But i managed to slip myself through till my tummy. THIS WAS WHERE IT STRUCK. My feet that was clasping on the hand held shower holder gave way and i immediately lost balance, causing my body to balance on my back bone without holding anything.. Searing pain surged through my body from the middle of my back. But thank god that the roof was made out of plywood so i could just push the MDF board up and slip my hand in to hold on the hard wood holding the ceiling together. Again i continued to move and finally went through and into the toilet!!!!! I AM AWESOME!!! and i realised that with me standing straight i culd actually touch the window with my head so i wasnt in any danger whatsoever. great.. Oh well, at least i know that i can actually do this stuff. Im pretty athetic and im pretty good in bending my body. HAHAAH, flexible much,.... XD Thats it for now. CIAO!
Why does hurt to see the one you love getting hurt,
Being far away and not being able to help kills me inside,
i love to think that i can bust a nose or break a rib,
But in the end i can't do anything thanks to distance.
Always with a smile when we talk and we laugh,
Being the one you love is like heaven from above,
I hate that people pick on you and bull at you all day,
But one day when i'm beside that gonna change.
Why,oh why must it be so far away,
Somewhere i can't reach and hold you and protect,
I wish i can give the life you always dream,
But the distance between us is just being mean.
The fact and reason is that i love you so,
Wanna give you the best, to give you my all,
I know i can't do anything now for i am young,
But i love you and thats all that matters.
Leave the bastards and bitches of life,
Let them say what they wanna say,
Cause when i come for you that will be the day,
I stick my fist into his face
Since the beginning of time of..... erm..... time of Adam and Eve i guess?? Men have always one thing on their minds..... Not cars.. Not cash. But the thing they crave and go crazy for the most are GIRLS. Yes girls, females, ladies, women, and any other noun you can think of that means female. We just can't live without them!!!! The bearer of our child, the one that raises the new generation of people. They can make us do almost anything,. (Yes man, we are that easily manipulated... >_<'') But as the time goes by, more cases and stories about idiotic men have emerged. The abuse that they go through, how men x-ray through even the thickest of clothing, the pain, the suffering, the nonsense, the trauma. IT IS JUST PURE BULLISHIT. Why can't we treat them with the respect that they truly deserve? Why can't we just wait till the day we find the one girl we wanna marry, settle down and love? Why can't some incompetent husbands love their wives the way the should, why the sexism and pro-male attitude even as a kid? I grew up in a background where i learn that women, are needed to be respected and loved as a friend, a person and individual. But sadly as i grew i see more and more children as young as 8 years old hating the opposite sex. As a teenager entering adulthood, its sad to say that these social abuse and poison that is eradicating our young ones mine has increased. All we see are breasts and ass. We only see the physical appearance and the assets they have but never bothered to look within. ( Guys, not within the clothing but the heart) Why is it? The social norm and mass media doesn't help one bit. I know people that ridicule me cause i haven't slept with anyone. WOW, that is really something. They would be bragging about the amount of girls they dated, took advantage of and number of girls they slept with. What nonsense.... Other guys that respect these boundaries have now also get sucked into these activities because they are pressured by their friends. These girls have feelings and given their trust. But they were taken advantage of and sexually abused. I'm no tbeing bias, some girls are just really... erm.... well, slutty so that can't be helped. But we as the male population should take our own stand on it. The poison that goes through our minds in movies and songs that makes us thing that having sex is a normal thing. Not to criticise anyone but like the most songs and music videos encourage these acts and as time goes by, the viewers themselves would think, hey my idol does it on his music video. Whats so wrong about me doing it? and this then brings to Sex addicts, Rapist, people who sexually abuse others (EVEN THEIR OWN SISTERS AND COUSINS) I personally despise them.. I really hate them. You can judge me for all you want but i know that raping and sexually abusing someone is definitely a NO........ Sex is a pure and holy thing that should be treasured and only done between one man and one woman which are married... Not between a couple or a boyfriend and girlfriend but BY a legally married man or woman. Personally i love women. I'm in love with one right now. And the things that go through my head are limitless. But i love her for who she is and for who she isn't. She has the cutest personality and i love every single thing about her. But my time will come, but the time to do 'that' definitely isn't now. So guys, hold it in and keep for yourself cause these girls are pure. Treat them with respect and love them for who they are.
The pain inside that burns and that scorches your soul,
The pain where you don't think that you can survive,
The chilling sensation the freezes your body inside out,
The hurt that you go through isn't what you deserve.
The shockwaves that sear from the heart to the body,
From top of your head to the tip of your toes,
Why oh why must this happen to me,
Where the stab in the heart makes you feel cold and in need.
all of it will be worth it in the end,
Fight hard, live life, and love with all you got,
All i can do is try to give my best,And hope its enough,
To soothe the pain in my chest.
Fantasy world you live in,
Is what people say,
I will prove them wrong and make it a reality,
Cause the girl in my heart is worth every penny.
I hope you read this and trust me on this,
Cause i don't know who else to trust except your heart that i miss,
Just wait for me and you will see,
That you and me will be together for eternity.
Taking this chance to aplogise for my actions,
The childish behaviour and failure in my emotions,
All the pain i have caused and shit i have brought,
Will be rid of when i give you my heart.
I don't know if you still trust me but i hope you do,
That promise i made was only meant for you,
If it isn't you then there is no one else,
Cause your the only one that makes my heart melt.
I love you girl with all my heart,
Remember me no matter what happens,
Trust me cause i will no longer act how i used to be.
In every work of art and picture frame in school,
Teacher that asks you draw an assignment given to you,
Draw an animal that you like, like a dog or a parrot,
have you ever seen a picture of a bunny without the carrot?
Gosh i find myself very prone to being lazy to blog.. ><''' Anyways, sorry for the super long wait!!! Don't really have much time to do anything nowadays with the studying, doing house chores, school, cafe, and procrastinating.. Yes.. Its procrastinating. XD
Life has been pretty good so far,asides my marks.... BUT THEY ARE IMPROVING!!!! but the only problem is theres only 22 days left.. oh what joy....
Well enough about me, lets talk about something that has recently popped up in society, CYBER BULLYING. No, doesnt mean you beat your computer and hope that the punches land of the person face... Thats the just ridiculous.. *ahem* Cyber bullying is a form of bullying that is by mocking, name calling, abusing through language and basically you know what?i'll just put the definition up, much simpler to explain.
Cyberbullying is defined in legal glossaries as
actions that use information and communication technologies to support deliberate, repeated, and hostile behavior by an individual or group, that is intended to harm another or others.
use of communication technologies for the intention of harming another person
use of internet service and mobile technologies such as web pages and discussion groups as well as instant messaging or SMS text messaging with the intention of harming another person.
Examples of what constitutes cyberbullying include communications that seek to intimidate, control, manipulate, put down, falsely discredit, or humiliate the recipient. The actions are deliberate, repeated, and hostile behavior intended to harm another.
THERE! much better... So anywho.... The rise of these form of bullying has been on a high, yes, im talking about the story of the one from port coquitlam.. Amanda Todd is a 15 years old teenager, only 3 years younger than me. How could people of our society do this? Aren't we humans as well? Would welikeit if this happened to us? How could they? Why would they? The society now has evolve into an inhumane society that sex, drugs and boozes is their primary goal in life. In this case, she just wants someone to call her own, someone to take care of her, someone she can rely on, to trust, and all he wanted was sexual pleasures.. Guys, we are better than this. If you love someone, love them from the heart, not the body.. Women deserve to be treated like queens, not a slut.
Yes its true, some people would think 'why is she so stupid?cutting and trying to kill herself with bleach?' When you are depressed, sad, or 'emo' nothing else really matters in life. They would be thinking that their life isnt worth living. I have came to that point before and i know how it feels like.. People should judge her by what few individuals say, they should take the initative to know who she is before making presumptions of her.
Lastly, why cant they just leave her alone? She moved away to get away from everything, they just had to follow her ei? Don't you know cyberbullying is a crime? Didnt know? Well here's the order.
Cyberbullying is a type of harassment using new technology. Whether it is criminal harassment depends on the facts of a case. Cyberbullies use social media (such as Facebook, Twitter, and YouTube), blogs, texting, instant messaging, and other internet avenues to engage in deliberate, repeated, and hostile behaviour intended to harm, embarrass, or slander someone. Although their work is public, cyberbullies are anonymous and it is often harder to identify and stop them.
Cyberbullying may also be defamation. The Criminal Code (section 300) outlaws publishing a "defamatory libel" – material published, without lawful justification or excuse, likely to injure the reputation of any person by exposing them to hatred, contempt or ridicule, or designed to insult the person. But criminal defamation is rare. More common is civil defamation – communication about a person that tends to hurt their reputation. Script 240, called “Defamation: Libel and Slander”, has more on this.
Oh yeah, there is a law about cyberbullying you know that? im am just freakign pissed about this!!!! why cant you people develop a sense of thinking ei? i know im opening myself to attacks but this issue has been long in my head ever since i was a kid...
Lastly, fellow friends, in the country or overseas, we can make the difference!!!!!! we cant take that step to stop this? Amanda Todd was left alone, being beaten up while 50 onlookers just stared and no one thought of helping her? So what she slept with his bf? So what? She's a human just like us! Why is it that she should face the music for someone that deliberately did and told lies jus tto cover up his own freaking ass ei? She was nice enough to cover your ass and you joined in with ridiculing...
Please, we can stop this... I have this tendency to go overboard even on social sites. I would send messages to my friends that do this to prevent them from being a jackass..We can make a difference. GOD! theres like 7 billion of us in the world!!!! Lets stop cyberbullying and make our earth a better place to live ei?
I might sound really cheesy and cliche with this but i had my best school camp ever!!!!!!!!!!! In my previous school camps i did have fun,yes i did.. But never like this.. :) I'm not comparing but i have never reallly enjoyed myself in my other camps.. i was so busy trying to pretend im a big shot but actually what i wanted to do was just have fun.. :) The camp was held on the 28th of september at Pangkor Island, Perak for 3 days till 30th September. I was so excited and couldnt wait till it started..But the beginning of the camp started out on a low note.. We were all in the bus and ready to go.. But then my teachescomes in and says that 3 students had to hithc a ride with the teachers cause the bus had not enough space... No one dared to volunteer themselves so, i raised my hand and made my way to front of the bus... Talk about sacrifical lamb..XD So me, master zifa and jar(not real names) volunteered and the bus left.. We waited with 3 other students til 12.30pm!!!!!! it was a 2 hour long wait!!! But we had fun fellowshipping and sharing.. Created a strong bond between each other.. Every dark cloud has a silver lining.. ;) We eventually left fot Lumut to take a ferry to Pangkor... My teacher was driving like he was Lewis Hamilton.. Overtaking cars and trucks and buses and lorries one by one.. ><''' Daredevil much?? Anywho, once we got there we set up camp on the soft grass and settled down... The first night was erm.... meh.. it was okay...But we had loads of fun.. Went for a shower all commando...hehehehe... what!?!? we're all guys in the toilet right!??!?! So woke up the next morning and started with a morning warm up stretching before jogging to the beach... Phew!!! what a work out!!! But it was good.. ;) had my shoes wet by accident and all but it was all fun and jokes as i never take things seriously.. ;) Came back and we had fun activities planned by our awesome teachers then, off we went for jungle trekking!!!!! It was such a beautiful sight to see.. :') all the nature, except the mosquitoes.. ><''' Almost everyone got bitten by leeches... Except me... hehehe.. Smart people tuck their track bottoms into their socks... it was almost 2-3 hours walking. Gosh it was tiring... ><''' At night was the highlight of the trip... we had a karaoke session with awesome singers coming out to showcase themselves!!!! I did a few slow songs and a couple of fun songs.... hehehe.. I did im a barbie girl... nice... XD But the best performance of the night was the jabsters blasting his vocals with aerosmiths - i dont wanna miss a thing!!!! The last day we went snorkeling and kayaking and it was fun!!! had loads of fun with sky(points upwards) Always thought that she was a sweet, shy, academic kind of girl... BUT... SHE WAS WILD!!!!!! hahahah she kayaked, she went snorkeling, climbed up a tree swing and swam in the sea with me!!!! WOW.. some chick she is... ;) and went she heard there was a banana boat ride, she rushed out of the water faster then the lode runner!!!! both me and her went along with the teachers on the banana boat and had toodles of fun crashing into the water and with the wind in our face... We came back at reached KL at 11.40....wowzers.... it was a great camp.. And i would never forget the memories and new established friendship i found with friends old and new.. :) Peace out, Carrots and Bunnies...
Most probably the last post for this month... SO... Gonna make me worthwhile.... Its been i guess a 2 weeks? a week since i blogged.. well, i ain't no veteran and i ain't a full time blogger so what the heck... > <'' In the midstof my exams and all.. Actually at first i thought to myself.. Pfft, you're gonna fail again you dumb sucker!!! But well, it seems i might not! The lectures and lessons by my teachers actually stick in my head and i'm actually writing it out.. Im not saying that im going to get all A's but i think its safe to say that i think.. THINK i might pass all my subjects..( i failed 3 out of5 subjects in the previous exam, yeah its bad) Studying a bit, doing family stuff, waking up for school early! now that is a big different.. started going to school on time already.. Thats pretty awesome!!!!! My life has been a real blessing. Honest speaking... Settled pretty well into the Sri Petaling Cell Group.. Integrated well into the varsity ministry.. But thats just a half of it.... What if im the problem? All my life i thought that i help people and physical i do.... But, what if what i do just make everything worst? In life, i have helped a lot of people willingly without 2nd thoughts on if its going to benefit me? or am i going to get something out of it? No.. i never thought that way...But maybe its because whatever i do, just makes things worst... I had my fair share of dating, claiming to myself that i can give them a better life.... But all im doing is make their life miserable.... I tried motivating and giving advice to a number of people.. Some actually worked and i do walk with them to make sure they are okay.. Especially when it comes to relationship and friendship problems.. Don't know why... they think im a love guru or something i guess... ><'''' Anyways.... Yeah... just today i ask this question to myself in the morning... Am i really helping? I feel like im just sucking their life away with false hopes and positive vibes that has no happiness at the end... True, sometimes i get depressed as well.. but cause im a happy go lucky bloke..But what if i try but nothing happens?? Instead it makes it worst....
Thats what happened this morning whereby i tried.. and i failed... miserably.....
Really confused and i got a history test to study for.. Friday im going for a camp.. hopefully i bring back some pics ei? TIll then.. Au revoir!!! Words of an epic failed carrot
Wandering in the wilderness without a cause,
Going in circles around the desert,
Climbing mountain and hills as i go,
With a cause maybe? I don't know.
Things that happen in my life,
Pains and smiles all alike,
I could never find the pathway laid,
Right in front of me as a little kid.
As a kid at 7 to 12,
Run around the school thinking its my own,
Making the rules and regulations as I go,
But a goal in life? haha, no no..
Pre teen life 13 to 15,
Life is great with tons of things,
New and different stuff i learnt and experienced,
Found a friend that i was never expected.
This period of time was the downhill,
One way trip to nothing but hell,
Hate this part of life though opportunities sprung,
Thank God my friend was there all along.
Now the wind that blows through the trees,
Present day is filled with bliss,
I found my way, my path and my cause,
Thanks to the angel that was sent from above.
The angel has been there all along,
God has placed her there but i never knew,
This beautiful angel disguised as a friend,
Came to my rescue and brought happiness in my life again.
I will never trade you,
Not even for the world,
The things we have shared and talked about are too hard to let go,
That why i say thank you, I will never let go...
Im bad in poetry or what crude,
Just typing whatever that came into my heart,
Don't judge and critique cause its not a that great,
Its not for you,
Its just an expression of words
Some things in life are easily forgotten, some are easily replaced, some are easily ignored, but some are hard to erase.... seriously.. it is..
As teenager now 18 years of age i have come across so many things.... Memories of my grandpa forever in my head, the stupid friends that would result to nothing good that are easily forgotten, things that i use in my daily life always being replaced cause im so darn clumsy.... Idiots that really get to my nerve that i would just ignore... But...
Why is these things so hard to forget?? Why is it that it haunts my memories and thoughts of the things i've done that i regret, the pain i felt when it happened, the blood that oozes out of my heart when it gets stabbed? why? why? Can't it be resolved in proper manner? was it something i did? something i said? WHAT IS IT!?!?!?!?!
This pain i felt just the beginning of the year,was a resultant of my own carelessness, my tendency of helping someone in my need, to take care of both my 'bro' and 'whatsherface'. During that time, the only 2 people that i would fight tooth and nail to keep them safe.. what happened?? betrayal, deceit, corruption... Death....
All my principles, my dignity, my honour... Gone just like that.. What did i do to deserve this?? Most said it wasn't you fault, some said i was being too nice... But in the end i know..
I WAS BEING ME.....
The personality and character of mine that is easily used and stepped on... Used to reach their main priority, their holy grail... Love, Power, Positions, Fame, Popularity.... Its all just a game.. My emotions, my hard work and toil, all forgotten...
This pain, is still felt deep inside my heart, the video clip is pops up in my visual once in awhile.. The agony that i go through...No one can imagine...
I would really thank god for the people in my life now, that treats me the way that everyone should treat each other, as brothers and sisters.... My church, my CG, my bunny.. they are the ones that truly understand how i feel, i really want to thank them for all the nonsense they put up with me... thank you for being there....
I just needed to get it out of my system.. ehhehe been bothering me for a whole long time!!! hehehe
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Even though we are deceived, still believe. Though we are betrayed, still forgive. Love completely even those who hate you. Sun Myung Moon
“What irritated me most in that entire situation was the fact that I wasn’t feeling humiliated, or annoyed, or even fooled. Betrayal was what I felt, my heart broken not just by a guy I was in love with, but also by, as I once believed, a true friend.” ― Danka V., The Unchosen Life
I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES,WHERE YOU FROM, YOU SEXY THING?
People in general of all nationality, race, religion, colour,tribe and everything else in between would believe in miracles... It can come in so many thousand ways!!!!! Gosh, how tell if its a miracle orh.... >_<''' It could be to some that healing of ones sickness is a miracle..To some even getting bread on the table is already a miracle.. Well, I'm not saying its wrong.... Different background contradicts to many different lifestyles and therefore the word miracle is commonly used... WHAT IS A MIRACLE!?!!??!! SOMEONE TELL ME!!!! I'm not in the position to say, this is a miracle... That is a miracle.... or whatever... All i can say is what i think it is... Everything around is a miracle.. Yes EVERYTHING.. Okay not everything.. (think positive people) Most people think that a miracle is something out of the ordinary.... Or God helping you in a situation... Miracle is your everyday life.. and God is constantly helping you.. You just don't know it... It took me awhile to finally understand this definition of a miracle.... I would constantly pray and ask God, ' GOD, WHERE'S MY FLASH OF LIGHTNING!!! WHERE'S MY MIRACLE!!!!' Well, he answered alright... DUDE, You are the miracle, everything around is a miracle, waking up every morning being awake is a miracle, studying is a miracle, you being sane is a miracle, I AM A MIRACLE.... DAAYYUUMMM!!!! That was a slap in my face.. Knowing all that i've been doing is a miracle... All the witnessing.. the praying, the helping.. the obsessive eating!!!! Even helping out in a summer camp or working is already a miracle.... Doesn't mean that it ain't a supernatural out of the ordinary thing, but it still is a miracle. God has revealed to me another miracle that happened in my life.. No it wasnt to me... People miracles aren't only to you.. its the people around you.. I met this friend when i was erm 15? His name is David.... He works in church and has an incurable disease.. Yeap, its HIV/AIDs.... But after so many years, he repented and now is serving the Lord. If you just hear his testimonies, that is a miracle...All these years still alive and well? And the fact that he accepted his condition but doesnt care.. He still takes life like any ordinary person. That one day few weeks ago during a seminar, i saw him going up to be prayed for, i cried..I just cried and declared that the miracles around me are beyond imagination.... Miracles can be because of a person? Yes.. I met this friend almost 6 years ago on facebook... Every year we would plan the things we would when she gets back. :) But every year, we always had difficulties and she would be unable to return.. I thought it was a forgotten dream.. But then this year, she said she was coming back!!! i was overjoyed!!!!! I was ecstatic!! It couldn't be anymore clearer that this is a miracle that God has shown to me that, I can do everything when there is no hope anywhere else... We had an unforgettable time together before she left.. I was thankful for all the things he has done for me.... revealing himself to me as a kid that made me accept Christ, the great times i had in my high school, the people i meet everywhere and in any circumstances, the responsibilities that are bestowed upon me, the time where he brought an angel to pull me out of that dark hole that i fell into many months back.... He gave me a reason to believe that everyday is a miracle... It doesn't matter if its a good day or bad day... So for those who are yet to find their miracle, let me tell you this.. You being there right now, yes you, the one reading this blog... You are a miracle, cause in someone's life, you mean the world and you are a miracle to them... And you are a miracle to yourself... Cause if it wasn't for yourself, you would never have the willpower to still be alive until now.. Now that you gotta admit thats true!!!! So yeah, doesn't mean the coffee in your cup doesn't part like the red sea, or the sun and moon doesn't stop when you ask them to, or no burning bush that doesn't reduce to ashes doesn't come, doesn't mean that you have never experience a miracle... Falling in love, is a miracle... Being with the one that you love, is a miracle because God gave you the heart to fall in love not by aspects of beauty but deeper within.. See? everyone has a miracle.. Even me, be it be spiritual, physical, emotional... God has worked wonders in everyone's life!! Its just the matter of how positive minded you are to see the wonders that constantly happen in your life.. Just because it ain't supernatural doesn't mean it isn't a miracle.. Sleeping is a great miracle for instance.. XD mi ange', this is for you.... Amen
“The way I figure it, everyone gets a miracle. Like, I will probably never be struck by lightening, or win a Nobel Prize, or become the dictator of a small nation in the Pacific Islands, or contract terminal ear cancer, or spontaneously combust. But if you consider all the unlikely things together, at least one of them will probably happen to each of us. I could have seen it rain frogs. I could have stepped foot on Mars. I could have been eaten by a whale. I could have married the Queen of England or survived months at sea. But my miracle was different. My miracle was this: out of all the houses in all the subdivisions in all of Florida, I ended up living next door to Margo Roth Spiegelman.” ― John Green, Paper Towns
Margo Roth Spiegelman is a characterin his book if you guys were wondering... ><'' see? thats a miracle to him.. ;)
Hmm... Nothing really much to say i guess... But i usually once i start ranting everything comes out i guess... OMG I KNOW!!!!! Recently i started to dig up the stuff of my past in my head. My childhood, my gramps, my studies, relationships, blah blah blah.... And then it hit me, hmmm... Il Divo... IL DIVO!!!!!!!! Started screaming like a little girl in my head and quickly searched it up... Started to hear them again.. Ah..... ..... ..... The beautiful spanish guitar in the background, the drumming of the drummer, the enchanting music that comes out.. just electrifying!!! ..... .... Then it comes, the voice of angels came out in harmony!!! Well, they aren't real angels but sure sound like angels on earth!!!! These four men.. French pop singer Sebastien Izambard, Spanish baritone Carlos Marin, American tenor David Miller, and Swiss tenor Urs Buhler They are Il Divo..... Il Divo in english mean Divine Male Performers.. Well, they truly matched the description.. :D I remember as a kid my dad would take the CD called 'Il Divo' and put in the CD player and this harmonious mix of music plays in the air... Today i again brought out that old cd and played on my laptop, plugged my earphones on, and close my eyes... Songs liek Regresa Mi, The Man You Love, Mama, and Everytime I Look At You started playing with the symphonious and beautiful orchestra filling my eardrums.. The spanish seductive words....The meaningful english lyrics... All four of their voices syncing together making a beautiful sound beyond comparison.... These songs are what i call songs.... Comparing to the songs today that only talks about Sex, Drugs and the physical aspect of beauty.. Using indecent words and vulgarities.. Don't get me wrong!! Some songs are music to my ears as well.... But then, this songs that they sing... The covers they sing such as Hero by Mariah Carey and even collaboration with Celine Dion in I Believe in You. Just speaks about unimaginable beauty.. ... The beauty within ones soul About hope About loyalty About love About life About fantasies beyond your wildest dreams....... Here are some pictures of the divine quartet!!!
Il Divos ANCORA album
Look at them handsome looking angels! (they ain't devils)
How gargantuan these 4 extraordinary men are.... Divine INDEED
Well, thats all I have for today i guess...The words that i read from her..*you such a fan boy*
HAHAHA....
I guess i am.. :) next one I have planned would be again about something spiritual again....
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MIRACLES??
If u have never encountered them, well maybe its cause you didn't know it was there all along.....
Thats for another time..
Adiós y te amo!!!!!!!
OH and here's a video to give you a sneak peek on how awesome they are!
Hmm... Lets see.. how do i start this.... When i was younger i lived as you can say a very carefree life.. All has been decided and prepared for me. I know its a sensitive issue to some but to me, its the best thing to talk about..
When i was younger and stayed at my grandparents place, i constantly follow the Chinese tradition of prayers. I didn't know what it actually meant but i just did it cause my grandpa was my role model.No one asked me about my religion and no one asked what cause do i serve.. As i grew up through my childhood to primary, the word RELIGION, never really bothered me at all.. Not on bit. I would say i am a Buddhist without knowing a being a Buddhist mean. all my childhood life, i never bothered asking my grandparents about this. They would just tell me to follow what they say.
Coming to the age of 11, i started to follow my dad to church. My dad has been a Christian every since he was in his teens. So i thought, 'HEY, why not right?' But when i went there, my life started to change in a very dramatic way. I started thinking differently, and started to ponder on questions of life. Why am i here, is there a God and blah blah blah u get the picture... ><''''
At 12 years old, i got saved and was baptised in water and i never looked back since. In camp, they asked to pray for one person we really wanna see become a Christian and the only thing in my head i could think of was my grandpa, Ye Ye. Thats what i called him. His name was Wong Min.... Before he left, he gave his life to Christ on his death bed..I just cried.... not knowing what to do. But i know he is in a better place...
But recently 2 years back, i've backslidded badly, although i was a youth leader and christian union president, i no longer feel that fire burning within me... I lost it, was it the things i've done? something i said? i really dont know...There was an emptiness inside my heart and i knew that God has forsaken me. i began doing things i shouldn't do and eventually leaving schoolwith a tainted image, a scared soul, a broken heart..
ANYWHO.... ENOUGH WITH THE HISTORY CLASS....
Fast forward 2 years to the present day, my parents 'encouraged' me to go for this seminar called the 'Glazing of Glory with Bruce Allen'. At first i really didn't see where it was going, but after the 2nd day, i got really excited! This speaker was so humourous, intellectual, and had a child like faith. He has been through so much, and had gone a whole long journey. I was amazed story after story, miracle after miracle. And then, the last day..... *dramatic victorious music*
They had a prayer session, where healing and lives were being touched.. And as people went out there to pray. i stood there in my seat thinking 'gosh, if only i could be in his presence again'. Then.... I saw this good friend of mine from Crisis Home went up to be prayed for... And a flashback came to me on how i met him, how i bonded with his family in the Crisis Home.... images of a younger me appeared and tearsjust start rolling down my cheeks... I could feel the love of God pouring out on me... I was again, filled with something that i cannot imagine to describe... I felt the feeling that was missing for so long.My faith in the Lord begin to grow... Until i felt like the boy i was before, except older and more hungry for Him.
I have found my holy place again in my heart..... :')
Hmm...... found out that my trials for stpm is in early october.. How exciting.... ><''' oh wells...
Studying form 6 iswaht people say it is,.. It is hard, it is tough and to top it all it is really really REALLY STRESSFUL!!!!!! But not all is bad... One thing i would love to compliment about my form 6 or now should say Pra-University life is none other than..... Its not the subjects, not the school, not the friends, but this one great, awesome, straight forward, critical minded, sharp tilt of a sword teacher of mine, *M.Menon* (not her real name) she's the awesome MUET teacher of mine!!
This specific teacher is not liike any other ordinary teacher.... she's funny, she's kind and fresh, she's tech savvy and she is very in depth to the things which are 'hip'.... There's so much i can say about her but unfortunately, i don't have the words to describe her to you.. You gotta know her to know what i mean.. ;)
ANYWHO.........
Today we had a speaking lesson for MUET and it was the best!!!!! Me and a few of my friends were chosen to model together with teacher on how a discussion should go and it was hilarious!!!!! It was energetic, it was exciting, it was was was... LEGENDARY...... It was one of the greatest time i ever felt in form 6. I LOVE MY MUET LESSONS......
After class, we had 2 periods free so what we did was me and my bunch of friends offered to stay back to help teacher with some work... Not only did we help teacher, we had a great discussion on about life, form 6, individuals, recent arising problems and so much more!!! I have never met a teacher so knowledgeable and so understanding as my teacher.. She is just indescribable!!! I am thankful that i got a teacher like her.. :) she takes the time to understand her students, she not scared to take risks, she is what people would call and ideal teacher... she makes things fun!!! She shoots us with sarcasm especially my classmate that sits beside me.. well, she shoots me as well.. XD but it makes us happy about ourselves and she actually cares about her students. She is proud with each students achievements no matter how small it is.. :)
She is the teacher that makes students like us want to learn and strive to do our best.. :)
Well, homeworks piling so i gotta jet! so till the next time i start going le loco??hahaha!!!CIAO!
starting something in my life i guess... instead of using the same old wall and pillow again and again to release myself, trying to blog. Not as satisfying but less violent i guess.. hehe.
As a kid, you can say my life was perfect growing up,without any problems.... Ever since my Gramps went back to be with the lord, everything started going downhill.. Entering teenage life was crappy and tough. Not like they pictured it in movies on how awesome it was to be in high school.. There was so much competition, kiasu-ness, drama,backstabbing, challenges and lastly the thing that brought to my downfall all this while, dating.
Dating has always been a subject on every teenager lips, and growing up with minimum exposure in this, things were exciting! dated for all my high school life, and suffered the consequences for it.. Getting dumped, used, broken hearted, and finally alone. My friends were always there during that period of time, until when it came to the year 2010.
I became a stubborn fool, and idiot some would say, psychotic... I couldn't differentiate what was right and wrong.. i become so obsessed with this one girl i was dating that my friends gave up hope on me... i suffered pretty badly, in all terms.... Especially at home and in my heart.. i neglected my life and solely focused on this point where i thought that nothing could go wrong.... How wrong was i.... A fool.
Until all was stripped away from me, even my best friends, Even my macha and shawty gave up cause i was that pathetic and i would never listen to them cause of my stubborness... Especially that one when i started to neglect her... After being hurt and killed inside i don't think i would ever come out of this dark hole i plummeted myself in...
Until my friend, she came from that darkness and stretched out her hand, the only one that i told about my life, every step, every move, every decision, every thing that happened in my life... She helped me get back up on my feet, forget about the past and move on... without her, i would've never come out to become who i am now...
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I can't do much cause well, this friend lives so far away.. All i can say is...
Thank you.
Thank you for all those years where you were always there.. listening to my rants, to my crap, making me want always smile in front of you.. always acting like a clown, always laughing to put a wide smile on your face that makes your face shine... :) I hope for many years to come, you will continue being my friend, my legendary friend, my bunny... Because if its not for you, i wouldn't be the jarrett i am today...
Merci beaucoup mon ami....
This first post goes to you... ;)
WOW, now i knw what shawty means!!!! its do good to let go of everything!!!!!:DD thanks for inspiring me to start blogging shawty!!!! always being a sexy biatch in my life.. XD ahahahaha..
Peace out!!
Sometimes when you fall into the deep abyss, sometimes when you fall and you think you can never get up again, sometimes you feel that you want to lie there and just die, well sometimes a hand comes out of the light to pull you back from the darkness.. Those are the times you will always be thankful for.. - annonymous
