As teenager now 18 years of age i have come across so many things.... Memories of my grandpa forever in my head, the stupid friends that would result to nothing good that are easily forgotten, things that i use in my daily life always being replaced cause im so darn clumsy.... Idiots that really get to my nerve that i would just ignore... But...
Why is these things so hard to forget?? Why is it that it haunts my memories and thoughts of the things i've done that i regret, the pain i felt when it happened, the blood that oozes out of my heart when it gets stabbed? why? why? Can't it be resolved in proper manner? was it something i did? something i said? WHAT IS IT!?!?!?!?!
This pain i felt just the beginning of the year,was a resultant of my own carelessness, my tendency of helping someone in my need, to take care of both my 'bro' and 'whatsherface'. During that time, the only 2 people that i would fight tooth and nail to keep them safe.. what happened?? betrayal, deceit, corruption... Death....
All my principles, my dignity, my honour... Gone just like that.. What did i do to deserve this?? Most said it wasn't you fault, some said i was being too nice... But in the end i know..
I WAS BEING ME.....
The personality and character of mine that is easily used and stepped on... Used to reach their main priority, their holy grail... Love, Power, Positions, Fame, Popularity.... Its all just a game.. My emotions, my hard work and toil, all forgotten...
This pain, is still felt deep inside my heart, the video clip is pops up in my visual once in awhile.. The agony that i go through...No one can imagine...
I would really thank god for the people in my life now, that treats me the way that everyone should treat each other, as brothers and sisters.... My church, my CG, my bunny.. they are the ones that truly understand how i feel, i really want to thank them for all the nonsense they put up with me... thank you for being there....
I just needed to get it out of my system.. ehhehe been bothering me for a whole long time!!! hehehe
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Even though we are deceived, still believe. Though we are betrayed, still forgive. Love completely even those who hate you.
Sun Myung Moon
Sun Myung Moon
“What irritated me most in that entire situation was the fact that I
wasn’t feeling humiliated, or annoyed, or even fooled. Betrayal was
what I felt, my heart broken not just by a guy I was in love with, but
also by, as I once believed, a true friend.”
― Danka V., The Unchosen Life
wasn’t feeling humiliated, or annoyed, or even fooled. Betrayal was
what I felt, my heart broken not just by a guy I was in love with, but
also by, as I once believed, a true friend.”
― Danka V., The Unchosen Life
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