The Heart

Pain agonising in my heart,
Burns with flames of blue,
With people around me talking,
I do not know what is true.

The wants in life is big,
The need is always small,
My heart just needs love,
But even that is hard by far.

Hurts when you are ignored,
Hurts when you are betrayed,
Hurts when you let it be,
But that only happens to me.

Let me be and let die,
I do not need anything else in life,
No one understands whats in my heart,
Nobody bothers as much.

Hell, whats going on here,
I thought the pain ended long ago,
It seems that i have to either live it with it,
Or altogether let it go.

Accused of being 'smart',
By someone that is so close,
The one who went through labour,
The give you life at most.

Today was a day i would forget,
Cause today hurts like before,
Can anyone save me from this world,
Or give me a reason to live at most.

This heart is weak it cant go no further,
Needs a place to rest at least,
But what if its place of sanctuary is no more,
Then it will never be at rest.

I hope its only today,
not the days to come,
The positives of life is running low in me,
I'll be gone very soon.

My love for you is  undying, just that my body is dying...
The feeling of physical pain is no more, only mental pain remains,
Deep in my head and in my heart it burns like a thousand crimsons,
Only you can save me form this treachery, only you can close the wounds.

It is not a complained nor is it  plea to leave,
This is a content of a soul which is empty like the house it lives in,
Please don't leave me i beg you not, i really want you to stay,
Please spare a thought for me sometimes, appreciated by it will be.

Never to force but to always wait and hope you make the decision,
For the sake of not me but us cause thats what i've always dreamed.