I know its not there anymore. The connection that we used to have. On my side i keep telling myself to forget about it anymd move on. But the problem is i can't. I thank you for telling me, after all this while your little secret.
I didn't feel anything when you told me, i felt no sorrow, felt no pain, felt no agony, felt nothing. The only thought that was in my head was the thought is whether were you okay... I might be a distraught and unstable former lover but in still the same friend that cares.. Please don't kep everything in...
The feelings you had for me before is gone, there's nothing i can do about that. All i know is that i will be here waiting when you decide to come back. I'll try again next year, and the year after, i'll keep trying until hopefully one day. We can share what we shared before. It is not a war that we have lost, but its a stumbling block i believe.
The story about your friend that brike up moved away to start a new life but still came back to the same guy is still stuck in my head. I dont know if it'll happen or not. But i'll be working to that i guess..
You want me to be selfish. So i shall. There's no one i want more to be by my side asides from you. And it will cotinue to be that way until the day you get married. Maybe im disarrayed, maybe i'm psychotic. I may not be able to love you like those guys... But i do still have genuine feelings for you. If you ever want to, i'll be here waiting..
Till then, take care of yourself... You'll always be known to me as the bunny hopping in the meadow. Its in my song, hahaha will never forget that. Have a nice life.
P.S. I still love you
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