Friday, 14 June 2013

Put a Smile On Your Face ( Optimistic)

Well, this past couple days i have been what i regard myself as the most emo-est kid in the world... I didn't know what to do. I had this pain in my heart that i couldn't control.. To make matters worst, it hurts unexpectedly and i don't know how to control it. Yesterday when i came home from school, the first thing i did was showered, ate then jump to bed to cry my eyes out. I was pretty pathetic and a real pussy you can say.

Today in school i was the same, it started in the morning driving to school and the first song that played Pink ft Nate Reuss - Just Give Me A Reason.... Great way to start the day huh? ... ><'''' so my whole day in school was terrible, i was a complete mess and my friends as much they tried to console my soul though i told them nothing of what has happened nor why i felt this way. But on the way home, as the radio was blaring a Justin Bieber song.. (Great another sober song) i thought to myself, way am i doing this to myself? I tell people all the time but i have never practiced it.. Behind every dark cloud there's a beautiful rainbow. As much as i yearn that rainbow would be the same rainbow i come to know and love.. I have to keep pushing forward and be optimistic.

I have to have faith, and believe, and trust, that my rainbow would come back to me.. Though in my heart i know thats the only rainbow i want, i must continue pushing on.. A friend of mind told me this.. 'Jarrett, there's nothing much you can do but tank through this period of time'. Honestly, even when playing Dota or LoL, i am definitely not a tanker... I need support to back me up, to push through the lanes. Thank god i have one or two friends willing to support me through my time of need. Though they don't know what going on, nor do they know why im acting like this.. But i believe,trust, and hope that my bunny will return back to me.. And this time, i would be different. I don't want this to happen again.. I want to make sure this time, i do change for the better. So this pain will never happen again.

So i decided that like 2 hours ago ont he way home, i will be stronger.. I will be persistent, i will be my happy go lucky self and have a break of my own and prioritize my life so when she returns, i will be ready. I made a promise 6 years ago to always try my best to put a smile on her face, no matter how i felt and how shitty i was. I failed to do so many times and i have failed to do it for this week. I'm not going to bother her and expect her to reply nor call.. I will just do my best to make her laugh or smile.. Cause thats what i want to do since the beginning.. I hope one day after the break, she would come back.. Cause i will always be waiting for her to return no matter how long it takes as long as she wants to, i'll be here... 3< BANZAI!!!

You might think im being a douche, living in denial or whatever.. But i know what i want to do. If it works or not i don't know. If she comes back or goes with another i still don't know. All i know is i love her and i will love her always... Always.. (She likes the colour red)

EEEEEEEeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDD


CUTE AIN'T HE? SMILEYS

Even the bulldog is smiling c'mon!



Carrots and Bunnies

Fingers crossed people!!!! 

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