Holidays

Its been a very long time since i typed anything worth reading or anything that actually expresses my thoughts and feelings. So im gonna do that today.

First of, my exams were so bloody crudy.. If i dont know better i would say this semester exams papers are the shittiest of shit. I knew tons of mistakes i've made in the exams and honestly i truly regret that i did not prepare properly for the test.

Secondly, the holidays have been very kind. I have no plans whatsoever to go anywhere or any prior engagements. (except the last minute planning that my mum constantly makes ><''') I have the time to do my notes, to study, to indulge myself into major sleep and nap times and finally socialising with church friends which has been so hard to do ever since i entered STPM.

Thirdly, the pros and cons of this month.. Im planning to get a whole loads of stuff for people this month due to the fact there's so many thing happening. On the 6th is a special day for me (wink) . 7th is my sisters birthday. 9th is the start of my 3rd sem. By this month i should be rostered in to the worship team. *Fingers Crossed* 22nd is my bunnies grad night. And finally this month would be my preparation for my MUET test which my teacher has put so much hopes and burdens on me to get a band 6 which in case you guys dont know is the highest grade you can get in the examination which is (many would say) almost impossible for anyone to get! Only those which proficiency in the English Language are worthy of that grade. I for one, am scared to my wits. 

Fourthly, the feelings and thoughts that come to mind.. Happiness, Joy, Determination, Love, Love, LOOOOVEEEE, Strength, Faith, Thankfulness and Hope. Cons would be JEALUOSY (this one i feel the most... T.T...), Stress, Anger, Annoyance, Grieve, Pain, Envy, and the feeling to not being able to fulfill anyone expectations as well as not being able to be there for the one i care for the most. These are feelings i feel almost every single month but this month would be greatly stressed due to the fact so many things are happening.

How i wish i was already in university studying my ass off to get my first paycheck. I've started saving like a crazy mogul for only 3 months now and i've ald summed up to RM300 which of course im going to buy a few things which i have ald been planning to buy since like.. FOREVER. 

So that is my holiday thoughts.. BLEGH..... Oh wells, anyways. Hope ya'll bloggers have a nice month now. cause i certainly hope they are nice to me T.T.....

I felt like i wanted to put pink..XD