In The Back Of My Head

I thought everything was going good. 

Everything was going great.

I never felt as happy as that before.. 

This ended a month ago..

A love i lost... A love i wanted.

A love i took for granted.

Will she ever want me back?

After all the shit i have put her through.

All the pressure i have given to her

The stress i placed on her to make a decision.

The pain i cause when i made her decide.

The annoyance when i couldnt accept it.

Is her heart with another?

Is her heart still with me?

How can i go on knowing all i want is her.

I put a smile on my face, i keep walking, i keep trying to make the world smile. To make her smile as well.

But i know deep in my heart,

There will always be a longing for her.

The feelings that will never leave..

The warmth of her hands.

The comfort of her hugs.

The soothing sound of her voice.

The snapping personality i come to love.

The love that sends jolts through me.

The lips that taste like the sweetest cherries.

Does she still love me?

Does she still care? 

Is it me she's writing about?

Or am i a forgotten past?

Am i just a forgotten relationship?

Moments of weakness i feel inside.

Springs up every once or twice.

I can't control it..

Even if she tells me she loves me even once..

I will be happy...

All im left with now is the thoughts amd memories of her..

If she calls me back, i will answer..

If she wants me back i will come..

If she wants my love, she will be loved..

Should i call her? Should i not?

Haiz.. Only tomorrow will tell me..

P.S I Still Love You Very Much

Carrot