Frowns of a Clown

I'm like a seesaw going up and down,
Some time up, sometimes down,
This is what is going inside,
In my heart and in my mind.

Focused on the things i have to do,
There's so much to do,
Studies, packing, songs to sing,
Its amazing i'm doing everything.

Some friends who talk and flips my switch,
They see me turn into the grinch,
Temper ablazed held all inside,
Its a wonder why people say im patient.

Other times I am happy as a lark,
All smiles all the time,
But sometimes those dark clouds come by,
And my smile is gone.

I realised something i didn't before,
That guys name and mine is almost alike,
It hurts to even spell my name,
cause with some extra lead his and mine would be the same.

I miss those times where i can talk,
Where i can smile with your mirroring back,
Am I the only one that is feeling this,
Or are you feeling the same way?

Highly unlikely cause im living in my own world,
World of my own in my fantasy land,
Where unicorns, leprachauns all alike,
And rainbows with pots of gold in sight.

Give up i say to the love that you had,
You'll never ever get that back,
Why do i wait for those words from your lips?
Cause les you say it i wouldn't move an inch.

Songs that are written just for you,
About you, around you and all about you,
Am i crazy or psychotic or just plain sad,
The jokers frown... damn thats bad.

The clown is frowning with no water to squirt,
Red nose deflatted, make up all smirked.
He cleans himself up and puts it back on,
Why? huh... Hope.... Love... All you need is love..