But the worst one is my mum... Years i have been living like a fucking puppet obeying every word, every command.. As i grew up, i decided i didnt want to.. But hell no... My mum has to pull shit stuff on me.. This time its about my phone..
I got a new phone 2 months ago..i really do like it i honestly do. But i cant give up my old phone... And my old number.. There is too much memories that comes with it.. Too many messages i cherish... Too many pictures i do not have the heart to get rid.. My one year of happiness revolved around this one number, one device which helped achieve happiness.
She wants me to give it away.. Along with all the memories i keep.. The messages.. Knowing that if i gave it away i would have to reformat it for my brother to use.. So now i have to fucking back all of it up into my hard drive... Worst shit is that the iphone does not support the private box in my GoSMS pro.. Which means i will never read those messages ever again...
No one knows except me.. The secrets i keep.. No but me knows how i keep my sanity.. No one but me knows how i stay positive.. No one knows how im always smiling... Let me tell you this then.. Every fucking miserable night, i would read a message or stare at a picture.... Get away from all the fucking shits in my life... And be myself... Crying myself to sleep.. Having everyone point at me for the faults..
No one cares for the skinny scrawny asian... No one cares what the asshole asian thinks or wants... no one gives a shit about how the fucking asian tall freak feels...Used...then thrown away...
Fuck life... I wanna leave life...
I've been reading your blog..and honestly..I kinda can relate to how you feel and what type of person you are..Life's tough,you just have to pick yourself up every time you fall..I just wanted to say that I've enjoyed reading your posts..Keep it up! ^_^
ReplyDeleteHeya!! Thanks for reading my blog :D and thanks for the advice! I've been doing way better since i posted this up. Nice to meet you btw! ;)
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